When you have the weight of the world on your shoulders due to a specific horrific situation in life and you fight depression, the night time is the worst.
Today is a crappy day. Not because anything particularly crappy happened today (yet) but because I am just so tired.
There are days that I can honestly say I have looked up toward Heaven and wondered,”God are you really real?” It is the days I feel most lost, most alone, and most vulnerable. It is the days when I am deep in a trial and wondering “WHY!”
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It is sad to say but…
I have lost my zeal for homeschooling. I have been going through the motions lately but not pouring myself into the children’s education like I did when they were little. Back then, homeschooling was still fresh and new for me and I was still excited about it all. After a few years of schooling, many moms tend to have homeschool burn-out. It is where you lose you drive and passion for it. You are tired and mentally exhausted and attempt to “push through” and the kids are bored and and disinterested tend to “push back.”
I have been stuck in “burn out” mode for too long. I struggle with depression and health issues ever since my “medically induced menopause.” During that time, we got “behind” in schooling and we never seemed to recover. But something has to be done…
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